the divine exhalation January 29, 2007

L

Have you ever had an orgasm that was so glorious, so painfully glorious that your head spun and your breath hurt?

Normally Yumi is the only who can, who ever has, taken me to those heights. Last night, Ying, a casual colleague, took me there.

It began as normal play and escalated wildly. Suffice to say that Chinese women are often, though not always, smaller than Western women and so their hands are smaller. Ying was also strong, which belied her fragile appearance. Inside me she worked some kind of magic and when I collapsed, exhausted in the end, I had nothing left to give.

Ying left my room, quite contented from earlier play, and I lay, my face red, my entire body pulsing, and the sound of my heart thumping in my head. I dared not even close my legs for many minutes, such was my sensitivity. So there I lay, on a hotel bed, naked, arms and legs spread wide, unable to move, and close to passing out for the better part of half an hour. Glorious agony is the most perfect expression for what I felt, and heavenly albeit painful, release.

I know this entry is more graphic than I would normally be in this diary but I could think of no other way to convey the feelings, and I just had to convey them.

Once things settled down, meaning I was able to move and actually stand, I bathed and from the bath, called Yumi. She was, coincidentally, somewhat ‘in the middle’ of something herself but, as I’ve mentioned before I believe, we have an understanding that no matter what we’re doing, we will never ignore a phone call to one from the other. I related, briefly, my experience and she, sweet love that she is, promised to surpass tonight when next we’re together. I told her it’s not a competition but she said it was her mission to take me higher. Who am I to argue? *smile*

When we said goodnight, I could hear that, at the other end, over the sea in Hokkaido and spurred on by our conversation, Yumi was climbing a mountain of her own.

I left them to it.

need of the body January 28, 2007

Y

Lisa is true saying. We young women have need from the body. I feel my body hungry from Lisa touch but no Lisa. Maybe girl pretty. Many girl want touch Yumi. Sometimes I want touch girl too so touch.

Heart body not same. Body can open for girl. Go in sky, feeling fire in all part of body. (Lisa teach Yumi comma, many useful, I liking comma, make Yumi write clear for read) Girl take Yumi top of mountain, feel happy, body washing hot as wave over ocean. After girl go, Yumi love feel but only loving Lisa. Heart, body, not same.

Yumi make sex the girl who making set in film. Yumi climb mountain many time, girl too. Late night girl leaving, go home, Yumi hot bath, smell good oil in bath lavender, going in bed sleep. Thinking Lisa. Heart, body, not same.

OK finish here.

Yumi

into the Middle Kingdom January 26, 2007

L

I’m now in Taipei, Taiwan. Tomorrow, I’ll be in Beijing, the chilly capital of China.

Only four days have passed and I miss my Yumi so much. She is my life.

Some may not understand what I’m about to say and if you judge me, or my Yumi, harshly, that’s your privilege. As we are young women and we both have careers which will take us away from each other for, sometimes, quite long periods, such as my current three week trip; we discussed and agreed very early on and again recently, just to be certain, to a few ground rules for our relationship.

As we are both quite sexual creatures we do sometimes have desires to sleep with other girls we meet along the way; and opportunities. We’ve agreed that either of us may surrender to our desires on condition that it is purely casual and that if any deeper involvement is indicated, then we are to back off from it.

“Easy to say…” I hear some people suggesting. I say, with commitment comes trust and responsibility. In myself I know that I’m fully able to operate within agreed limits and I trust Yumi to do the same. We have a simple philosophy. No person can own another person and if one wishes to part permanently from the other then it can’t be stopped by some notion of ‘ownership rights’.

We have made a commitment to each other to be together for the long term. Whether that is a year, a decade, or for life, we can’t know for certain, but our promise each to the other is to respect each other’s feelings and the beauty and seriousness of our devotion. We are also free and encouraged to relate whatever may happen in the beds of others, or hotels on our travels.

Like a few nights back. I’d met a girl, actually a person working at our meeting place, and we’d exchanged ‘meaningful’ glances from time to time during the day, when she brought coffees, etc. That evening we met for drinks, went to my hotel room, and spent a couple of intensely enjoyable hours together in my bed. She left around 11:00pm. We both understood that it was ‘for fun’ and the next day was a normal day; no awkwardness.

After the girl had left my hotel room I called Yumi, related the news, chatted with her about her day and mine (as we do every night), and had a good night’s sleep. Last shoot she was on, a similar thing happened with her and one of the crew.

Freedom means different things to different people. Freedom to Yumi and I means sharing love with each other, and our bodies with others when and if it’s appropriate and enjoyable. It’s not complicated.

timing can really suck January 16, 2007

L

Yumi, sweetheart, it’s ok. One of the first things we knew when we got together was that our lives are busy and complicated and our careers will take us away from each other often.

There was a meeting scheduled for Saturday in Taipei but I’ve put that off to Monday. I will need to leave Sunday afternoon but at least we’ll have some more time together, providing your shooting doesn’t go over schedule. We each have our pressures from outside my sweet Yumi but I promise it won’t be forever.

The lawyer told me that the apartment should be ok to move into in just a few weeks. He’s pulled some strings. I’ll be in Taipei for about four days then Beijing for another four, then Shanghai, Hong Kong, then home again. All together I’ll be gone about two weeks, maybe in time to have a final inspection of the decorations, and move in. I’m so excited about it.

I know it’s not my fault and I know you understand but I am so sorry the today had to be the day I started my period. It’s unfair but we can still have a beautiful evening. Dinner tonight, that place you love so much. Honey, I’ll take you to the stars tonight, higher than you’ve ever been. And when you come back from Hokkaido, you can do that special thing for me. Yummy Yumi.

work fast coming January 16, 2007

Y 

Phone in morning ring and director want shoot early, no Friday, tomorrow. Shit. This Lisa week.

Many things doing.  Cup and chair must look. Bed and lamp must look also. Many things must look.

OK. Today shop and look and things must buy. Tonight love no shop. Tomorrow go shoot maybe two day.

I so sorry Lisa leave you. I back before you going.

Lisa love you.

our new flat January 14, 2007

L

Yumi came back today from her shoot. WOOHOO!!! She arrived a little after 1:00pm, we had some lunch, a little lie down, and met the property agent outside Yumi’s building.

With a little over half a day’s searching on Thursday, Yumi found two properties that she really liked. One was a 5 bedroom, 3-storey house, over 4000 square feet. The other was a 3 bedroom, 2-storey penthouse apartment, about 2500 square feet. Both were lovely but the house was really too big for the two of us and with a drop-in maid, not live-in (we prefer that), it seemed a little excessive.

It turned out that Yumi preferred the apartment anyway and I absolutely love it!! It’s got a lovely roof terrace and a jacuzzi off the main bedroom, separate from the en-suite bathroom. It’s low-rise and minutes from Shibuya. The lower floor has a bathroom for guests who might stay as well. It’s new and beautiful and I’ll arrange for the papers, etc tomorrow so we can move there as soon as is practicable.

So, we now have a place of our own, well very nearly, and we’ll spend tomorrow out shopping and relaxing. And now we know how much space we have in the new flat we can choose furniture and decorations. Luckily we both favour minimal, modern Japanese style and similar colours so it’ll be exciting.

We’ll see if we can post some pictures of the style of furnishings once we’ve decided what we’ll be having.

something for Yumi January 14, 2007

L

I know it’s a little soft but I’ve written my first ever haiku for Yumi.

Yumi, my sweetheart, this is for you. *kisses*

beautiful Yumi
sunrise after morning dew
she brings me wonder

waiting for her January 14, 2007

L

Having been away myself, and Yumi now being away, it’s been a long week.

As the days pass it becomes harder to go when circumstances take me away. I miss her so much. Maybe a lot of people are like this. The small, personal things I miss the most when she is gone. Like in the morning and I hear the gentle flip-flop of her slippers on the wood floor, then her singing to herself in the kitchen or the bathroom. Yumi has one of those cute, little girl voices like Ai Otsuka the singer we love so much. She sings simple pop songs to herself and I just lay in our bed and smile.

Sometimes, if I’m lucky, Yumi will bring me hot toast and tea in bed. She’s even bought the jam I like from some place, god knows where in Tokyo, that sells foreign brands. While I eat she’ll just sit and watch me, her legs tucked under and her head slightly tilted; smiling. That’s an image that makes me sigh from the sheer cuteness of it and turns me on incredibly all at once.

My honey will be here in around two hours so I have time to prepare a little coming home surprise. I had flowers delivered first thing this morning. I’ve been onto the property guy and he’ll pick us up at three to show us the new place. So, we’ll have time for some ‘greetings’ and lunch before the inspection. I hope I going to like it as much as I expect to.

Right, off to the shower after a lazy lie-in, but first a nibble. I am starving. Where’s Yumi’s breakfast when I really need it. Tomorrow maybe I’ll be lucky. There’s a fresh jar of marmalade in the cupboard but I’ll leave that for now; something to wake up to tomorrow morning. Just some buttered toast for now then and maybe a coffee. Yumi doesn’t like the smell of coffee so it’ll have time to clear before she gets here.

I think I’ll wash my hair. Get the smell of smoke out of it.

My Yumi’s coming!!!

I come back January 14, 2007

Y 

Work finish here come home this day. Director will having the work Wednesday. Many warm time come we home together. Afternoon this day looking the home for live. My Lisa wait me home. I come you. Face hot.

Kiss mouth and eye  love come

Yumi

almost back to the nest January 12, 2007

L

My sweet Yumi, things are going well here and I’m just finalising arrangements. It’s looking very good for Saturday and when you return from your shoot on Sunday we’ll have a day or two together before you’re off to that assignment in Sapporo.

I hope you don’t mind , I’ve made dinner reservations at your favourite place for Sunday night. You won’t see this until tonight I guess with all your running around house hunting. I can still hear you laughing when I first said those words ‘house hunting’. The puzzled expression on your face was worth a million pounds. Remember what you said? “House don’t running. Why hunt?” I wasn’t laughing at you, sweetheart, it was just a funny expression that I hadn’t realised really makes no sense if you take it literally. And you do take things literally and I forgot that. Stupid Lisa, eh?

Well, the break in the meeting is almost over and time to go back in with all those boring numbers and graphs.

Hey, don’t let that director push you around Yumi, he is not a god, only a man. I know you want to perform at your best so do that thing you do and be ice and be calm. Just take a little while to sit in the trailer with some of that special tea we bought in Kyoto and remember the incense, it’ll help relax you. You know the one. Breath in and out slowly, let the bad out into the air.

I hope your day goes as you deserve and you find your dream. My heart is filled with you, my love, and all I want is to be there. Only a few days and I will stroke your hair and sing that special song. Then we can lie together and share the beating of our hearts.

Love you,
Your Lisa